living in a song

before i get into it...

please excuse my syntax. please excuse my grammar. i'm an old school romantic who never paid much attention to the precision required in translating your mind to black and white or whatever colour your tool may ooze.

back to the point...

some wonderful writing brought into my head a topic of living within a song. the story behind this subject, as usual, was very entertaining. at first i thought that to make a defining statement such as this i would have to sit silent, eyes closed and ponder at great length on my existense to date. wrong! all i really had to do was follow my heart.

my heart lives in the moment, and at this point in time it is living in the memory of someone i lost recently. i still find it hard to romantically phrase this loss. i suppose my anger and hurt prevent me from doing so... she passed away last june from cancer.

ok, so, living in her memory. longing for a future that has been stolen. playing a song over and over and over in my head, on my ipod, wherever... i live in this song. it is a song i wrote and each line has significant meaning to us both. it is a song that she inspired me to compsose. it is, to me, a song about how love should be, and despite the unsaid that goes along with each word, it says so much about where we were headed, togehter... before her tragic fate fell on our world.

the main inspiration started with talks of travel together, exploring the world and each other. followed by hints of commitment, stronger and more certain after each moment spent together. and finally, with a brave and confident embrace she took the pieces of my heart and gave hers in return. my heart thumps wildly for her still.

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daylight is fading, i'm holding your hand
we're walking together on seashells and sand
your arms move around me, i feel the air that you breathe
time stands still before us and i don't want to leave

when all is said, when all is done
i'll still be loving you, you're so the one
when all is said, when all is done
i'll still be loving you, my heart won't be undone

the lights are off, in our room tonight
and i'm lying beside you, holding you tight
you whisper in my ear, my fingers go through your hair
if the world fell around us, i wouldn't care because...

when all is said, when all is done
i'll still be loving you, you're so the one
when all is said, when all is done
i'll still be loving you, my heart won't be undone
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there you have it. it is short, it is sweet, it is ours and i miss her terribly. i miss her singing it to me, i miss singing it to her. i miss our future.

this is where i live.