escape

b-b-b-b-brain hurtsssssssss, c-c-c-can't w-w-w-write...

i've spent the majority of my adult life surrounded by unsolicited advisors. Don'tcha just love free input from people that will never be around a) to help implement it and b) to help pick up the pieces after it goes wrong. even better, is my favourite sneering response after thanking these folk for making it worse... "i was only trying to help". as if i am some kind of ungrateful lowlife. thanks, but next time i'll go to chapters and buy the 'do it wrong yourself' manual.

conclusion... as long as you are somewhat able to come across as knowing what you are talking about, you can pretty much f$&k up any situation for anyone who never really asked your opinion in the first place.

marbles rattle in my mouth
my brain and body are out of synch
bantering fills my ears
and logic leaves me

space, empty all around me
i crave this time
to reflect - to 'reboot'
escape; come to me now.

so, where is this heading? i have to tell you that i am in serious need of some downtime - from everything! like a crack addict foaming at the mouth for my fix, i want to get lost, get outta here... see ya! i'm just not sure on where to fit it into my busy, getting kicked in the ass, schedule.

i'm thinking the sooner the better... fiji anyone (wink)?